fear factor!

of being mediocre
of being left out
of rejection
of losing control
of hurting feelings
of being hurt
of leaving comfort zones
of getting stuck in comfort zones
of not being able to undo
of 'I told U so' s
of time flying
of the unknown!

knocking on ur door

is the opportunity to 'do'
the other is the opportunity for the 'do' to be 'seen'

even talent seems to be mutually exclusive
some can 'do' very well but cannot 'show'
some 'shooooooooooow' without being able to 'do' ;)

grrrrrr.....

just when u think u have it all figured out and start settling in...
there! at the end of the corridor appears something that disturbs the equilibrium...starts as a ripple and turns into a tsunami
ignore it, in return get a rude slap
u fight it and the battle seems impossible
get pulled into the quicksand, limbs flailing...refusing..fighting
then calm down and think of a new strategy
there always is another perspective
and then its all about choices
pick one...the others come back to haunt...
life's like that....

of puttu and pongal in the land of potholes

of white mundus and koshampodavais
of realistic (depressing!) intelligent stories and mindless superstar worship
of meen curry and vathal kozhambu
of kathakali masks and kuthuvilakkus
of simplified rules and elaborate systems
of the creative and the mathematical
of a love story chugging along in the land of potholes

when u cant pin it down....

when u go thinking in circles
when u know not what ails u
what role do u play
where does it begin and end
or does it
what are the rules of the game
what is the game
who plays by whose rules
who made the rules
who decides u play or not
who really wants to play with u
why do u want to play
when do u decide to let go
how do u decide to let go
let go of what
why solve
why solutions
why does it all have to add up
or multiply
to what end
to what goal
to what purpose
why end
why goal
why purpose